This has been the most difficult part of this journey for me so far. Early on I realized how dependent I was on external validation for my self-esteem, ego. But recently, I’ve come to know (intellectually) that my inner self embodies more wisdom than I can imagine if I just trust myself.
I’ve committed myself to this several times, yet I keep finding myself taking actions which contradict this embodiment or truth. Seeking answers on youtube, from others on patreon. I also realized I’ve become attached to the aha quick validation moments from those external sources — why am I giving away my power to the external and discounting myself?
Trust and surrender. These are aspects I know I am here to work on — it’s difficult because I believe the universe supports me from a broader perspective but still feel the struggle to apply that in the here and now and nitty gritty of daily life, which is when it matters the most.
I’m bringing my awareness to this again. To cement this lesson into my psyche and really take the next step in bringing my consciousness within my physical body.
I’d love to hear your thoughts on this; have you struggled with this or found a perspective that’s helped you release the idea of knowledge being outside of us?